words

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  need now something to stand my feet on. hard times around one that is. not for living. not for loving. throw words and watch them doing nothing. no one to hear those words. words for nothing. every possible ear listening to something else. every word fading down to silence. all falling into oblivion. it's a no be. no be what could be, what an impossible being. that's my words, something erases my words as i say them, maybe even before they are said. insane killing of could be faces of reality discovered in unsuspected places.

   

  only words to keep what i see. to keep it out of me. may be what i see is no more than useless. it sure is. what i see cannot have any use to what i see: i mean: if i see something, that something is by no means affected by being seen. that makes it impossible to say anything even if it could be possible to have all those words freeze before fading out forever. i mean: how can i say this: a problem i have, that's for sure: images overload so much, so hard that words never belong to the right image. i mean: to the right time. i mean: words could be said but even if they are said they don't go anywhere. i mean: you can put your words here but, as you see, there are so many words around that words get lost. i mean: words get lost. i mean: words get lost, or never can they make it to the right place or wherever they have to go to be heard. to be words. i mean: why? i mean: why is it so? i mean: why.

   

  may be i just don’t get it. i mean: i'm ready to that: maybe it's just one of those things that are really simple: easy thing: i just dont get it. it's helpless. it's just like that. but still i don't like it, even if it is so. that's why i keep trying to order words, to put words in the exact locations so they can mean - and i never get it. i mean: never can i be sure to have done anything more than the nothingness of not be.

   

   

   

   

   

   

  2010